Dina:
Changing your brain and your body is an emotional process. If anyone tells you differently, they are WRONG.
I am stuck. S.T.U.C.K. And it sucks. Kelly pointed out today that I have completely lost sight of who I want to become through this process. And she is absolutely right. My last blog post is proof of that. And if you have been around me for the past few days, it is a perceptible shift. You can go through the motions…eating cleanly, exercising…but if you don’t know where you want to be at the end of 90 days (or however long your journey will take) you will never get there.
So what do I want to become at the end of the 90 days? REALISTICALLY??
A more confident, aware and happy individual.
Notice, I did not attach a number to my emotional well-being. You shouldn’t. I won’t. But I know my confidence will rise when I start seeing results. I will feel happier when I see and feel physical and emotional changes. Awareness will come when I begin to slow down the freight train that runs constantly in my head. I do not feel confident right now. I am not happy because I have not seen the results I was expecting. I am becoming more obsessed and less aware. Sliding down a very slippery slope. And this is where the process STOPS for some people. This is where they make the decision to not keep going because ‘they have worked so hard” and “see so little”. Buck up little camper…you ain’t done shit.
But today, I am going to do my very best to make sure that ends. How? Good question.
By making my first step. And tomorrow following up with the next step. And continuing to take one step after another until it works. I realize that 54 days ago was supposed to be my first step…but apparently it was not. And you know what was great? During our meeting today, Kelly reminded me that I have 30+ days to go. And those are the days that matter…not the 54 days before today (although the work we have done has brought us to this point and cannot be discounted).
I am working on a clear vision of what I want to see at the end of the next 30 days. I may share that vision soon but right now, I’d like to keep it as a work in progress for a few more days. It is something that Kelly gave to me as my home work…and I will most definitely comply. I am also creating a “vision board” so I can put my goals in front of me. A vision board is a tool used to help clarify, concentrate and maintain focus on a specific life goal. Literally, a vision board is any sort of board on which you display images that represent whatever you want to be, do or have in your life. I won’t be “Frankenstein”-ing pictures of nice arms or skinny thighs on my vision board because the law of attraction does not take the place of hard work and exercise. Instead it will be broader picture images of who or what I want to become when we are done….
So I decided to go back and read the entire blog and pull out some questions I asked during the process. And answer them. Because if I just keep asking questions and never find my own answers, I will never progress.
Day 2-5: So, how do I feel emotionally just under a week in?
There was no way after only a week I could have even thought about the emotional involvement I would have in the process. Today I cried. Big, stressed out, tired tears…and it felt great. And right after I let the tears flow, Kelly and I laughed so hard my stomach hurt. And its this emotional upheaval that makes me realize that I am finally “all in”. Today, I let it all go…no holding back, no excuses, no glory. ALL IN.
Day 26: How do I get my body to listen to my brain? And how do I get my heart to see a more realistic vision? And once I get all 3 in sync, where do I go from there?
Ummm…hello??? Your brain tells your body what to do. Your body just won’t decide one day not to listen – it’s the same brain telling it to do something coming in and saying not to do something! The only way your body will refuse to do what you want it to is if you have a physical limitation. So I am realizing the “disconnect” is not brain to body…it’s brain to, well, BRAIN!!! And my heart? Well, it just has to buckle up and enjoy the ride.
Day 33: “Dreaming Thin” How exhausting, time consuming, and downright crazy is that kind of behavior? Right. So why do WE ALL do it at one time or another?
Still dreaming thin. I still envision unzipping the fat suit and stepping out of it looking like a Playboy Playmate. WTF, right? But dreaming is just that….dreaming. I need to just DO. Yoga has been helping me quiet and center myself and focus more on life goals rather than my “fat suit”. How fantastic is that? Quiet your mind, get out of your own fucking head and just do.
Time to hold on friends…
And Kelly…I’m here and I’m here. But I AM going to get THERE.
Kelly:
Is there really anything for me to say? Yes, but I will not overshadow Dina’s day; a lot happened at the studio today.
Quickly… I posted a comment on fb about 3.5 wks ago. I remember it clearly, I was in NY for my husband’s birthday and I had a massive flutter of emotion of everything that was “happening over the last few weeks” and for some reason the words worked. They were:
“I’m here, you’re there. When you’re ready to be here; I’m there.”
This was my way of letting everyone around me know that…. I’m here, you’re there and when you’re ready to be here; I’m there……yes, I repeated it on purpose. You decide what it means. A friend in Utah
Last thing: Rules. I just made a rule; the words “fat” “suit” can no longer be used. Whether they’re together or separate. J New word: Vision
…………looking forward to getting to know Dina’s vision…………I’m here. One step from there to there to there to there to here to here to here to here.
Happy Visioning!! …and thanks for the hug today.
(Dina, are we still International on this blog? & we need to get into the T shirt business!)
"If You Can Change Your Mind You CAN Change Your Body"
Kelly LaCasse
Fitsique Body & Mind
www.fitsiquebodyandmind.net
kellylacasse@verizon.net
Dina Wiroll
Feed Your Soul
www.feedyoursoulnow.com
dina@feedyoursoulnow.com
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